Weight Issues
i've always had a problem with my weight, i'm just going get it out there and say it, because i have. from a young age people have always called me fat and made fun of my weight, even though for the majority of it i was never even that fat and it really got to me at times at most i weighed 13stone which technically is in the 'normal' weight category.
Last summer it got so bad that i developed an eating disorder and in only 3/4 weeks i lost 2 stone and i felt so ill and so weak because i starved myself, and when i did eat i would binge and then purge because i felt guilty about eating! i know its crazy that i felt abut eating. But thats the result of bullying for you.
And i've always had an emotional attachment with food; when i'm happy i'll treat myself; when i'm sad i'll binge etc so food has always been a huge part of my left and there's never really been a happy medium.
Even recently after i left hospital i started eating a lot more that usual and quickly got back up to 13stone which is the heaviest i've been and i hadn't really realised until i put a shirt on and it was really tight and i just felt so disappointed in myself, and that the caused a consequential weightless. i've started running most days either once or twice pushing myself to limits that could be potentially harmful to my health. And in 2 weeks i've already lost nearly a stone and i know that this is unhealthy and because of that i have to go to group counselling where i have to talk about my eating problems.
And this post is to tell you that both boys and girls have eating and weight issues because its getting increasingly common in this day and age because of the high standards people set themselves.
So don't listen to those people that call you fat because they are just being mean because of their own insecurities and want to just be horrible because they aren't capable of much else. You are perfect just the way you are, you can look however you want, you should have to live up to anyones expectations except your own. Its you life, live it how you want to live it
Last summer it got so bad that i developed an eating disorder and in only 3/4 weeks i lost 2 stone and i felt so ill and so weak because i starved myself, and when i did eat i would binge and then purge because i felt guilty about eating! i know its crazy that i felt abut eating. But thats the result of bullying for you.
And i've always had an emotional attachment with food; when i'm happy i'll treat myself; when i'm sad i'll binge etc so food has always been a huge part of my left and there's never really been a happy medium.
Even recently after i left hospital i started eating a lot more that usual and quickly got back up to 13stone which is the heaviest i've been and i hadn't really realised until i put a shirt on and it was really tight and i just felt so disappointed in myself, and that the caused a consequential weightless. i've started running most days either once or twice pushing myself to limits that could be potentially harmful to my health. And in 2 weeks i've already lost nearly a stone and i know that this is unhealthy and because of that i have to go to group counselling where i have to talk about my eating problems.
And this post is to tell you that both boys and girls have eating and weight issues because its getting increasingly common in this day and age because of the high standards people set themselves.
So don't listen to those people that call you fat because they are just being mean because of their own insecurities and want to just be horrible because they aren't capable of much else. You are perfect just the way you are, you can look however you want, you should have to live up to anyones expectations except your own. Its you life, live it how you want to live it
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